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I know I love you.
I know you know it too,
but is it fair for us to hold on to what we once knew?
To continue writing a story that is undoubtedly hopeless?
To drive each other toward an improbable future?

For once I want you to tell me:
do we have any reason to stay?
Is there anything left to keep us here?
I believe we just have a lot to let go.

I know you love me,
but do you really love me?
Do you love me for how I think?
How I speak?
Do you care to know the depths of me
or just what’s on the surface?
Tell me.

I know what I want.
I want you to love me for how my mind works,
for how the gears turn and thoughts become art.
I want to spend time with your mind
and not just your body,
and I want you to want the same from me.

I know I love you,
but I am in a haze of knowing whether you love me
and I’m drowning.
Not knowing your intention is bane.
So do I go mad as Ophelia,
so be it,
for it would only be fitting.
Then, maybe, you would go mad
and play the part as Hamlet,
then I would know you whether meant it.

So I’ll submerge myself into you
or maybe into the depths of my loving you
and divide myself from my fair judgement.
I’ll forget there’s a way out.
Simply forget that I knew how to swim
and allow my body to linger in a pool of cool blue.


August Music

20. August Playlist '17

Look at me being right on time with posting!!!! I didn’t have any inspiration to make this playlist until two days ago, but sometimes the best playlists are born in the spur of a moment.  Never the less, I am proud of how this one turned out.

My favorites:
Do You – Spoon
What You Know – Two Door Cinema Club
The Less I Know The Better – Tame Impala
I Can’t Control Myself – Strange Names
(and OBVIOUSLY any song by Flor) but I feel like at this point, that’s a given so it can go unspoken.

ALSO: Keep an eye out for a new poem post this month!

July Jams

19. July Playlist '17

Well … better late than never, am I right?

My favorites this month are extensive:
Where do you go? – Flor
Unsaid – Flor
Million Bucks – Smallpools
Trip Switch – Nothing but Thieves
Despacito (DUH)
and 2U – David Guetta & JB

My favorite band just released their first ever album and I am over the moon about it!! I have included more than one of their songs on this playlist as well as many other playlists in the past! I am linking their Spotify page here and I also want to include their band homepage here as well. I hope you love them as much as I do! (Help me convince them to come play in D.C.!!!!)

And as always, my Spotify playlist:

March Playlist


Happy March! Spring is coming! On this playlist my love for That Poppy and Marina and the Diamonds was birthed. Enjoy my new found loves! Don’t forget my Spotify is linked below!

My favorites this month:
Lowlife by That Poppy,
Pretty Girl by Maggie Lindemann,
and How To Be A Heartbreaker by Marina and the Diamonds



Lincoln Memorial Shoot

This past December, my family went to Washington, D.C. as we usually do. Being from that area, it’s something easy and fun to do. Thankfully this year, we had family in town for Christmas and we all went to see the Washington National Cathedral which was one of the few places I had never been. (I will try to make a post about this D.C. visit which, if it ever gets done, will be filed under “adventures”). We also hit up the stairs featured in The Exorcist, the Botanical Garden (which I do not have any pictures of) and lastly, the Lincoln Memorial. Here are some of the pictures that my brother took while we were chilling out there.

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I am wearing a yellow, black, burgundy, and white turtleneck sweater that was purchased at Target, high waisted jeans made by d.jeans and Dr. Martens that were bought on Amazon! The coat I’m wearing is actually a thrift find. It is a mink coat designed by Mary Sachs.

I got the shirt on clearance, the pants a long time ago and the coat was thrifted so I cannot link them here, but the link for the boots is: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B000W3YM6S/ref=wl_it_dp_o_pC_nS_ttl?_encoding=UTF8&colid=317W1GG8YFXE4&coliid=IM82HW2H1EHQX&psc=1.

I said Happy New Year in my playlist post, but I still can’t believe that it is 2017 already and I just have to say again how excited I am and that I can feel great things coming this year. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Photos by: Parker Richardson
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