5 Movies that Shaped Me (Pt. I)

With fall among us and people of all ages being excited for Halloween movies, I thought it was the perfect time to make a post about movies.  While the movies I am about to list are not Halloween related, I am excited to share them because, as you can tell from the title, these are movies that played a part in shaping who I am.  I have had people I know question why I re-watch the same movies over and over again and the answer is simply nostalgia, influence, and admiration.  I’ve always loved stories that made me feel something.  These first five are more classical, but there will most definitely be more to come of different genres.  So without further ado, and in no particular order, here are five movies that have helped shape me into the person I am today:

  1. Gone with the Wind – Gone with the Wind is a classic that combines romance with the happenings of the civil war. Scarlett O’Hara (Vivien Leigh), the rich, beautiful, bell of the south, despite her self-centered and wild spirit, is forced to exert bravery and strength in order to rebuild the life of her and her family in the south after the destruction caused by the war.  After being married quite a few times and living with her longings for a man that is married to another woman, she remarries again to a man in which she is not aware she loves until she runs him off.  Scarlett, once again after realizing what she has lost, gathers her strength and decides she must win him back. (240 mins)

     

  2. Mamma Mia! – Mamma Mia! is a musical, composed strictly of ABBA music, that takes place on the little island of Kalokairi off the coast of Greece. 20-year-old Sophie Sheridan (played by Amanda Seyfried) is engaged to marry the love of her life, but feels incomplete without her father there.  The problem is, there are three possible men that could be her father.  Before the wedding, Sophie finds her mother, Donna’s (Meryl Streep), diary and secretly invites the three possible fathers convinced that she will instantly know which one he is.  But of course, once they all arrive, she has no idea which one he is.  Sophie must now figure out a way to keep the men and her mother from knowing the truth about their sudden appearance on the island. (109 mins)

     

  3. Les Misérables (2012) – Les Misérables is both a historical love story and musical. This one takes place in France during the revolution based on the novel by Victor Hugo.  Living under the ruling of King Louis XVI, Fantine (Anne Hathaway) works in a factory in order to send money to her “dying” child who is staying with an innkeeper man and his wife.  After being fired for being a single mother, Fantine is forced to sell herself in the streets to pay for her child and becomes very sick.  Before her death, Jean Valjean (Hugh Jackman), who had been imprisoned for 19 years for stealing a loaf of bread and is living under a secret identity after violating his parole, promises Fantine he will care for her daughter.  Not wanting to disgrace little Cosette, they are always on the run to prevent him from being caught.  However, Cosette does not know all of this and when she ends up falling in love with Marius Pontmercy (Eddie Redmayne), Jean Valjean must do all he can in order to ensure the survival of the man he will leave Cosette to when he is gone. (158 mins)
  4. The Age of Adaline – Adaline Marie Bowman (Blake Lively) is a young woman who was born on January 1st in the year 1908. She lives a normal life in San Francisco, California until one day she has an accident.  Her accident causes a strange phenomenon that causes her to stop aging.  After being questioned about her age by the FBI, she promises herself to change her identity every decade for the rest of her life in order to stay hidden for fear of becoming a science experiment.  After all those years of hiding away, Adaline meets a man that makes her long life very complicated. (120 mins)

     

  5. Hamlet (1991) – Ahhh, the classic Hamlet based on the tragedy by William Shakespeare. Believe it or not, this is truly a movie I watch over and over again.  Hamlet (Mel Gibson) is the teenage son of Queen Gertrude and late King Hamlet.  He wants nothing more than to protect his mother and the kingdom they rule, but when his father dies and his mother remarries his uncle, Claudius, Hamlet is approached by his father’s ghost who claims that Claudius murdered him.  Enraged and frightened, Hamlet struggles with whether or not to believe what the ghost has said and doesn’t know what he should do with the information and starts expressing disturbing behavior.  Hamlet is in love with his counselor’s daughter, Ophelia (Helena Bonham Carter), and the people are not able to determine whether he is acting crazed out of sadness for his father or his love for Ophelia.  Claudius decides Hamlet should die and sends him to be executed in England.  However, Hamlet is too smart and escapes his near death.  At home, Ophelia is distraught with her own father’s death and Hamlet’s behavior and drowns herself in the lake.
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Ophelia

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I know I love you.
I know you know it too,
but is it fair for us to hold on to what we once knew?
To continue writing a story that is undoubtedly hopeless?
To drive each other toward an improbable future?

For once I want you to tell me:
do we have any reason to stay?
Is there anything left to keep us here?
I believe we just have a lot to let go.

I know you love me,
but do you really love me?
Do you love me for how I think?
How I speak?
Do you care to know the depths of me
or just what’s on the surface?
Tell me.

I know what I want.
I want you to love me for how my mind works,
for how the gears turn and thoughts become art.
I want to spend time with your mind
and not just your body,
and I want you to want the same from me.

I know I love you,
but I am in a haze of knowing whether you love me
and I’m drowning.
Not knowing your intention is bane.
So do I go mad as Ophelia,
so be it,
for it would only be fitting.
Then, maybe, you would go bewildered
and play the part as Hamlet,
then I would know you whether meant it.

So I’ll submerge myself into you
or maybe into the depths of my loving you
and divide myself from my fair judgement.
I’ll forget there’s a way out.
Simply forget that I knew how to swim
and allow my body to linger in a pool of cool blue.

More than Black and White

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I’d love for life to be in black and white,
and for it to be easy,
and for us to know what we want,
and to be sure of it one hundred percent.
I’d like for a lot of things to be different than what they are.
But we’re all too busy worrying about what other people think
and how they will judge the decisions we make.

Who knows if we’ll ever know what we want,
but we’re doing our best to figure it out, despite the world.
I admit that I worry what people will say,
I feel like I don’t fit in,
but I won’t give up trying to identify myself,
and I won’t give in to what society wants
because I am not black and white
and there is so much more that I hope to be.

We are so much more than just black and white
and what we are told we have to be.
We’re all individually unique
and we are each full of so much color,
and I am so tired of watching this world try to shape us into the same person
and change our colors to fit its palette filled with the same generic ones,
and try to tell us who we are supposed to be,
and tell us we can’t succeed unless we blend in.

So don’t let society shape you into something you don’t want to be,
don’t let it mask the colors inside you that want to reveal.
Be who you want to be.
Flourish, learn, grow, and love your life,
and along the way take pictures,
make memories and live stories worth re-telling.
Do all the things you’re scared to do,
the things that make good stories,
go out on a limb, try something new,
and don’t be sorry.

x Sass

I Really Love Music

I love music.  I mean, I really love it.  I was born to love it.  I have it running into me through my ears and eyes, through my soul and veins, and out my mouth and fingertips.  It’s every part of who I am.  It gets me through the day.  It saves me as I save it to my library on Spotify.  It motivates me and helps me discover who I am and gives me passion for creativity.  Just hearing a single line flowing together in just the right way makes me fall in love with a song instantly.  It helps me to feel all the emotions I have buried deep inside, even if I don’t necessarily want to feel them.  It creates a release for them. It puts me at the ease I so desperately need some days.  There are so many different types of music.  Music that makes you wanna dance and music that makes you wanna cry.  Music that makes you wanna laugh and music that makes you wanna scream.  Music that helps you fall asleep and there is music that lets you dream.  It fills every corner.  I can’t rid the need for it in my life.  Music is so important to me and it captures all the words that I am somehow unable to come up with myself and displays them just the way I hoped they would be.  It’s amazing how the perfect combination of notes and rhythms can create such a lively feeling inside of you.

x sass

Love Like No Other

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I’ll love you like no other.
I’ll take a long time getting ready just to hear you nag,
I’ll make you ride in the car with me so I’m not alone,
and I’ll make you listen to my obscure music
and play it until you know every word by heart.
I’ll beg you to take me out for ice cream
and make you get me doughnuts in the morning,
then be a pain to wake up when you get back.
I’ll list a ton of places for us to travel to,
I’ll hold your hand despite the sweatiness of it,
and turn the heat on high even though you like it cold.
I’ll complain about how the yellow starbursts are underappreciated,
and convince you to let me do your makeup,
I’ll annoy the hell out of you
just for the fun of it and because I know I can.
I’ll ignore you so you’ll apologize first,
but then give in because I can’t stand not talking to you.
I’ll drag you out of bed at one o’clock in the morning to cook eggs
and make you dance around the kitchen with me
even though you’d rather be in bed,
wrapped in blankets, sleeping soundly.
But I’ll also tell you this much:
I’ll love you like no other.
I’ll wake up early without being asked
just so I can make you breakfast.
I’ll rub your back because you deserve it
and run my fingers through your hair until you fall asleep.
I’ll admire you when you aren’t watching
and deny it when I’m caught.
I’ll surprise you with little things
like coffee, lunch, or those you suggest
just to let you know I listen.
I’ll spontaneously adventure with you until we run out of places to go.
I’ll put aside my wants for your needs
and worry about whether or not you’re safe when I’m not with you.
I’ll cross oceans for you
so you never have to wonder how much I love you.
I’ll never promise not to be difficult,
not to drive you crazy, but
I’ll love you unconditionally,
and I’ll love you like no other.

x abigail

Ariana Grande (Greedy&Sometimes)

I am literally obsessed with these two songs from Ariana Grande’s new album Dangerous Woman.  I played the album at 6:45 the morning on my way to work after the album came out and these two stuck out to me most.  I immediately played them on repeat when I heard them and then did the same thing on my way home!  Congrats on your new music Ari! I hope at least one person loves them as much as I do. ❤ They’ll definitely be on my June playlist 😉

Grey

I knew you had to go,
but it didn’t feel time,
so I sat quietly and watched you leave.
Words couldn’t make you stay,
words couldn’t make you return.
So in the silence I waited
for a change that was far-flung.

Days grew grey.
And I was okay with that.
It grew to be my favorite color.
I dressed in grey,
as I lived in grey.
It was comforting,
but that was because I could choose it.

Grey became a lifestyle,
no longer a choice,
but an actual way of life.
I became grey.
So I changed my name to Grey to suit me.
The color surrounded me like a storm,
fierce, yet calming.

The world closed in,
soon be, nothing but my loneliness.
I lied in a world that had lied to me
and let it take me as it came.
“It’s fine.” And it is.
But I all became weak,
with my soul a burst of color.

~xo abigail

25 Things About Me

Sooo Happy Valentine’s Day guys! I know it’s the fifteenth and this post has nothing to do with Valentine’s Day, but here’s some things about me in case you’re curious!
~xo, Abbs

  1. Obviously this was going to be first, but I am scared of mayonnaise. It just really freaks me out and I won’t do anything that has to do with it.  It’s so disgusting.
  2. I played travel softball for 10 years as well as t-ball for 2 years when I was little.
  3. I have a really big problem with my eyes watering. It’s a 24 hour ordeal and I swear it’s because they’re blue.
  4. I am obsessed with Iceland. I will go one day and when I do, you’ll never hear the end of it.
  5. I love holidays. I have Pinterest boards dedicated to each holiday filled with crafts and cute food ideas.
  6. I didn’t ride my first BIG rollercoaster until I was 17.
  7. I’m constantly asked if my hair color is natural. (It is by the way.)
  8. For a long time I went by Abbey, but I have decided I don’t like it anymore. Only two people in my life called me Gail and I love them for it.  (Call me Abbey and Mary Kate will have to kill herself due to my excessive rants about it.)
  9. In high school, I was in a pop A Cappella group that won a really big competition. I’ll love you forever Fully Charged.
  10. I don’t have a favorite color so I just stick with black and white.
  11. I hate doing my hair because I’m bad at it.
  12. I am not a dog person at all, but am determined to have a Boston Terrier one day.
  13. I love how it smells when it rains. It’s so satisfying.
  14. I LOVE the snow and winter is my favorite season.
  15. I am the most indecisive person to ever walk the planet.
  16. I have been to Canada, Mexico, and France. (And hopefully Iceland one day.)
  17. I talk to myself way too much. If you ask me if I’m talking to myself and I say no, I’m probably lying.
  18. I went through a major Avril Lavigne phase in middle school. I was determined to be just like her.
  19. I have the biggest family in the entire world. I have over 40 cousins in my generation just on one side of my family.
  20. A 1987 Volkswagen beetle is my dream car. The first one I ever saw was in Montana when I was 14, I still have a picture of it, and I’ve been in love ever since.  (It was orange.)
  21. My grandfather was a pilot in the navy and now owns two private planes. This began my love for flying and I’ve even flown one of his planes myself.  (He was in the plane with me of course.)
  22. My grandfather is my role model. He’s my favorite person ever.
  23. I only like chocolate sometimes. It’s a wishy washy situation.
  24. When I was in elementary school, a poem I wrote was selected to be published in a children’s poetry book. Guys, I’m a published author.  To be honest, I have no idea what the name of that book is or where it is, but I do remember what my poem was about.
  25. One time in gym, I knocked my elementary school best friend’s front teeth out during a game of kickball and we still laugh about it… I hope. She definitely still holds it against me.

Go To Daily Care Products

I don’t know if I’m the only one, but I get excited when I see people recommend products they like because that means there’s a chance that I might like them too.  So here are five things I really love, and a couple of them are probably products that you’ve never even heard of.  Let me know in the comments if any of you tried or liked any of them!

  1.   Ponds bio-hydrate hydrating cream.  Having said what I did about the pore tightening, you will need to moisturize because it dries out your skin.  Ponds is fresh smelling and doesn’t leave behind an oily feel.  My skin takes it in so fast, letting me know that it’s been hydrated right then and there.
  2. Neutrogena make-up remover pads.  Again, I really love this product because it’s a lot less oily than bottled remover.  I have very sensitive eyes which are constantly watering and giving my issues, so it was really nice to finally find a make-up remover that didn’t irritate them.
  3. Bag Balm.  So, this product was actually created as an ointment to massage into cow udders, but PLEASE bear with me.  Bag Balm contains lanolin that stays on for long-lasting moisture and my family has been using this as Chap Stick for as long as I can remember.  I’m not going to lie, it smells really funny and Mary Kate hates whenever I put it on and refuses to use it, but I promise you it really works!  I can’t even remember the last time I asked for Chap Stick over Bag Balm.  This is going to sound even worse, but this can only be purchased at hardware stores. Weird, right?  You can get it in two sizes and while it’s kind of expensive, it lasts you forever as long as you don’t lose it.
  4. Maybelline Fit Me! Matte +Poreless Foundation.  This one isn’t really a care product, it’s a make-up product, obviously, but this changed my life as did the rest of them, so I had to include it.  I have really oily skin so when I found a foundation that came in a color light enough to match my skin, (Ha, ha, go ahead and make the jokes about how pale I am.  I’m sure I have heard them all before.)  I was so excited.  I’m eighteen and have tried a lot of different foundations, but this one is by far the best one ever.  Fit Me Matte +Poreless was designed for normal to oily skin and whenever I wear this, I never have problems with my skin feeling oily or worn out during the day.  I don’t have perfect skin, but after I started using this product, I received so many compliments on it.  (I was even interrupted by a classmate while I was in the middle of a college presentation because she wanted to know what foundation I wore.)  So, yes.  I would recommend this foundation to anyone, and have already.

~ xo abigail

Winter’s Dance

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I wish to dance as they in the sky,
the thin air ringing to keep them alive.
Their fable is beauty, so chilled and up high,
as are the heavens in which they all thrive.
They leave behind a wonderland fleece,
which leaves me in tears whenever it cease.
By and by, admire do I,
for the rhythm’s a sight that captivates eyes.
Waving goodbye they dance through the night,
hidden by darkness, but never gone quite.
Until tomorrow I’ll dream of their dance,
where maybe we’ll both fade into expanse.

~ xo abigail

Photo by my adorable friend, Anna Jones